I should be happy.
Apr. 15th, 2004 11:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I've got my stories onto 'Stories of Arda'... one of the reviewers really liked how I write. I'm going to be the center ref for two under-10's soccer games on Saturday. I'm going to get to see M&C again tomorrow. It's Friday tomorrow. I have a kitten who I think likes me. Doctor Peter is going to write a letter of rec for me for vet school.
So why am I not happy?
I'm tired of being the odd man out. I'm tired of being the strange one. I'm tired of being told how horrible I am.
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I'm probably over-reacting. I'll look at this tomorrow, or Saturday, and consider deleting it. But right now, I'm wishing I lived somewhere very far away, and by myself, with only my kitten, so no one could tell me what a big, fat, loser I am.
Like I don't tell myself that a half-dozen times a day at least. Sheesh.
So why am I not happy?
I'm tired of being the odd man out. I'm tired of being the strange one. I'm tired of being told how horrible I am.
............................
I'm probably over-reacting. I'll look at this tomorrow, or Saturday, and consider deleting it. But right now, I'm wishing I lived somewhere very far away, and by myself, with only my kitten, so no one could tell me what a big, fat, loser I am.
Like I don't tell myself that a half-dozen times a day at least. Sheesh.
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Date: 2004-04-16 10:28 pm (UTC)Seriously, though, you are, and you don't ever have to be alone.
If things get too bad, you can always talk to me. Heck, you can come visit me. Or I'll come visit you. Or you can call me on the phone, if you wanted to. Honestly, I'd do anything I could for you guys. It wouldn't be some huge sacrifice on my part, either, and I'm not just saying it to make you feel better. I mean it.
'Member that, kay? *huggles*
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Date: 2004-04-16 10:30 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-04-16 10:46 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-04-16 11:38 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-04-16 11:18 pm (UTC)Okay, done now. Really.